Life's Short So Make It Sweet!

2007-06-05T06:44:00.000-07:00

Saturday was a good day... Hung out with ubi boys... Its fun to hang out with them... All memorable and stupid things we have done... Getting drunk with them is the most funniest time ever... The coffeeshop auntie had advise us not to drink so much and also not to puke there... We then said " Ok ok auntie no problem u close the coffeeshop we can handle no worries "... Afta an hour, each one of us start vomitting all over the coffeeshop... Haha and till then we had neva visited the coffeeshop again... I bet the auntie was cursing us when she open the shop in the morning... So last sat i hung out wit them plus wit hossein... And they had to start the stories abt ghost... It was 2am plus... And the bonus thing is tat noone is at home... Plus another bonus thing my neighbourhood plus my house has been proven haunted by my sister and brother that had seen these things... Cool thing right... And if i faint or die ,who knows they can suck blood u know, i'll be facing it alone... So otw back alone, i had this really bad goosebumps... Thanks to some prayers tat i manage to remember in time of crisis... Lol only in time of crisis... The goosebumps gone... So got home, open all lights, wash my feet, get blanket, cover myself, sleep. Thats My Saturday... =)

Do You Notice Me?

2006-12-25T10:33:00.000-08:00

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.
I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called "Yellow."
So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to've done,
And it was all yellow.
Your skin
Oh yeah, your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know
You know I love you so,
You know I love you so.
I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.
Cuz you were all yellow,
I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all yellow.
Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know,
For you I'd bleed myself dry,
For you I'd bleed myself dry.
It's true, look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for...
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine...
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,A
nd all the things that you do.

2006-10-13T14:50:00.000-07:00

The Little Devil...

I was looking through my photos yesterday and i found this primary school picture of mine. There's this small boy sitting with his hands on his knees and with socks all so high up with his sinister smile looking all so innocent. Thats the freaking little devil right there and he's me!! I thought i had tat title when i was in secondary skool but only now that i realise i had it all my life. Me and frens used to break the fire alarms and played with fire extinguisher before the flag raising ceremony and hell we got a good reason for it. The school bus came so early and we had nothing to do. It started out with this morning walk around the school block and we got bored after sometime. So one day we saw duster and then we came across a fire alarm. Then we did our math. First we thought the equation would be (Duster + Fire Alarm = Trouble) but after trying we got a different answer it equals to FUN!! We did it almost eveyday for one week. We got caught after that all bcos of PAVEENA that sotong junior prefect had to stick her nose everywhere. Lucky i didnt get any caning all thanks to my innocent gremlinish teary eyed look tat i gave to the DM. There's so many stupid things i did when i was in primary skool like showing middle finger to the teacher and asking her whether its a bad thing when i already know it is. Cabut from skool during recess to go to mama shop. Running in my undies around the school for i dont know wad reason. Slacking with the makcik cleaner when there is class. Lucky i got my freaking brains back when i was in primary 5. I dont know what i'll be if i didnt. I probably be coming home drunk right now if i had not stop mixing with my crazy frens.

2006-09-24T10:00:00.000-07:00

Holidays Are Here!!!

Its So Damn Boring La!!! Nothing to do at home... Just do housework... Plus mum wont let me go Bangkok... Thinks that im gonna do some hanky panky stuff over there... Try to beg her to let me go... I miss the Celo Kebab over there and the endless supply of milk!!! Heaven... Plus the university girls... Haiz... The only bad thing abt Bangkok is their traffic... Other than tat its paradise... Esp the goods there... If my mum allows, i'll be going with hoss next week... Who wants to tag along?

2006-09-08T20:43:00.000-07:00

Yesterday!!!

Last day of my hospital attachment was yesterday... Feel kinda sad that it had to end la... Gonna miss everyone esp the nurses and my frens... All the gangster nurses, the scary jigglypuffs, the too cheery girl... Cannot disturb them anymore... This is gonna be so boring... Cannot disturb Gangster Jigglypuff Ribena anymore, no more slow mo walks wit too cheery girl, no more bitching abt Jenny wit Jovell, no more disturbing of swell up Jigglypuff, no more getting boss ard by Gangster Hanna, no more crapping wit Marissa... Im gonna miss attachment!!!

2006-08-04T14:11:00.000-07:00

Todak Day!!!

20 over todak was caught today... It was on their way to singapore and we manage to catch most of them before day reach to shore... For those who has watch "Singapura Dilanggar Todak" u'll get what i mean... My uncle got shot through the leg by one of the todak... Ok la actually he got a little hit... Only his shoe got hurt badly... I brought home three swordfish and three belanak... Ok hossein if u happened to read my blog... I confess i didnt swim when catching the fish... I didnt fight with the stingray... It was probably half dead when i pick it up... The water wasnt that deep too... I did all that extra bullshit talk to make it more interesting la... Why dont u just believe me when i told you the extra spiced up story, u had to go ask my cousin... Lain kali percaya aje la!!!

2006-07-10T15:51:00.000-07:00

My Childhood Sweetheart!

Everyone has his or her own childhood sweetheart who they can't really forget abt. I have one and she's really beautiful but everytime i meet her i'll get all shy and stuff. I'll go out of words when she says hi. I'll say stupid things when she invites me over to her house to watch her favourite show. I'll try to get her attention by playing with her little sister but whenever she comes over, i'll just smile. My heart goes pounding when she calls me. "Fuad Fuad Fuad" i will turn to her smile n say hi then just look away. Arghhhh!!! I'll will only smile and say goodbye when she's leaving. Fark why am i so farking shy. I shldn't have gone there. I knew she would be there. Now im missing her. This neva fails to happen everytime i see her. OMG her sweet voice!!! The next time i see her would be like in three months more!!! DUMB DUMB FUAD!!!

2006-06-14T10:45:00.000-07:00

Life!!!

Life's seriously a bore rite now... Frens busy with skool and their oth stuffs... Got a few projects to be done... My attendance in skool sucks... One percent away from barred from exam... Holidays doesnt seem like one... Work's fine... Anyone who wants free satay just drop by thats if im working alone or wit hossein... I seriously need guy frens in skool... Like seriously... U know humans... They learn how to adapt and change according to their environment... I seriously dun want to adapt and change... Im a man im gonna stay tat way till the rest of my life thats if i get guy frens in my skool... I've been mixing ard wit girls too much... Its not like they are not fun or anything, they are... But its not everyday they are fun... They have the thing called pms... I think i have to like make a list of their time of the month... Mary 8-15 (Minimal Conversation With Her) Betty 19-26 (10 feet away, Can cause severe damage to u) Lola 12-19 (Stay out of sight, Blames u for nothing)... Ok im exaggrating... I've neva experience those things before... Hey after all they are unpredictable... I Love My Mum...

2006-03-02T20:17:00.000-08:00

Bangkok!! I Miss Ya!!

Back In Shithole... I feel so different now that im back in Singapore... Singapore is dull... I hate this place... Im neva gonna live in this country...

Look Very Closely...
Then You'll See The Glass Hidden In The Grass...

2006-01-22T05:49:00.000-08:00

Engagement Party!!!

Tired Frustrated Dissapointed.... Whole day of hard work... Got boss around... No mixed blood teenage girl... Damn wad a day... At least we get to fool around wit the packed food.... *Sinister Grin* Working with the three persian carpet boys was chaotic...

Makcik: Dik boleh tolong pack kan makcik nasi dalcha ayam sama achar...

Hassan: *Sinister Smile*

Hassan look at me i look at hassan... *Sinister Smile* Hehehe.... Hassan and me took all the half eaten chicken and top it wit damn alot of oil and packed it for her... Next hassan packed the nasi wit alot of kayu manis me wit alot of bunga cengkih and hossein tat fucker lol put like half the bawang goreng into the tupperware wit the rice.... If u think we are bad, u shld see the way they treat us... They think we are the 18 century slave...

The best part was me and hassan went to a provision shop wanna buy cigg...

Me: Auntie One viceroy red...

Auntie: U 18 ah... Where's ur ic?

I gave her my ic... She look at the back of the ic and still not convince tat im 18 so she look at the pic... Then she take calculator to calculate... Crazy Bitch... Afta minusing this year and 1988, she's convince tat im 18... My and hassan's eyes were glittering, it was as if some staircase to heaven just appeared infront of us... As she was abt to take the cigg, there had to be a showstopper phrase... " Ur birthday in october right?"... This small little hope in my heart just shatters... Lucky i had negotiating skills... A viceroy in hand makes me smilling always...

2006-01-21T06:23:00.000-08:00

Miriam Fares!!!

Lovely Woman... Her belly dancing... Holy Smokes... Noone can freaking beat her... I cant bear this pain no more... She's killing me wit her dance... Help Me... Banging my head wont do any good.... FARK FARK!!!!!!! Guys u shld see her video clip... If u dun become a zombie fan slave of Miriam Fares, u betta freaking run bcos i will shoot u down... Liars deserve to be shot... Does Singapore have a Lebanese community? I need suppliers...

Tmr betta be good... There betta be mixed blood!!!

2005-12-15T02:27:00.000-08:00

Gayism!!!

Holy crabs!! Im so glad tat im straight man... Gays= Slapping guys butt, Giggles, Telling oths how hot another guy is, Those delicate hand movements, Fantasies of getting hot straight man... Ewww...And they walk like a red ass baboon... Their ass is their pride... Not forgetting their high pitch voices... Omg imagine a guy calling ur name in a high pitch voice... Whoa tats a turn on.... Holy shit it isnt... Guys if u have one of those symptoms above... Be afraid Be very afraid... Go to the doc ask for some male hormones... And if tat dun work go to a witch doctor... Singapore's ageing too fast and gays aren't gonna help... Guys may us be always straight... And for those who is seeping to the wrong side... Come to me i slap the gay outta ya... I mean punch... slapping is so gay....

Current Mood: Scales tilted to bad side... Hope it balances soon...

2005-11-18T15:44:00.000-08:00

Oh Wait!!!

I've seen this scene before...
Just didnt think it would happen again...
Oh well im used to it and expected it anyway...

Thought it was all over...
But it aint huh...
Expected tat too...

Has no one told you?
Your cries are all in vain....
I dun need someone to tell me...
I noe my cries are in vain...

2005-11-15T00:13:00.000-08:00

3 Days!!!

3 days of not smoking... I noe this doesnt prove tat i have stop smoking but still this is great achievement... Im gonna stop smoking and i will... I've made a promise and i aint gonna break tat promise... Im gonna prove to u tat im not like others who break promises... Anyway thanks Sarah... Without u, i dun think i wld even try to stop smoking...

A song for viceroy...

Feels like you made a mistake
You made somebody's stomach bleed
But now I have to let you go
I have to let you go

You left a stain
On every one of my healthy arteries
But I am stronger than you know
I have to let you go

Be strong
Keep telling myself
That it wont take long till
Im free of my disease
I'm free of my disease
Free of my disease...

Original song Disease by Matchbox Twenty...

2005-11-11T04:37:00.000-08:00

Hari Ini Dan Semalam

Hari ini kau datang riang
Tersenyum buatku senang
Kau hias dirimu
Membuat hati bertambah sayang

Tapi wajahmu semalam muram
Mengapa dewi mengapa
Mungkinkah aku bersalah
Cubalah dewi katakan

Jangan dewi jangan begitu
Senyum-senyumlah selalu
Manis riang
Wajah bertambah jelita...

2005-11-01T03:35:00.000-08:00

Sir Elton John And George Michael!!!

Whoa Wad great singers they are!!! Are'nt they?? Ok hers's the turning point!! Dun U Guys Get Disgusted When This 2 guys Sing Abt Love? And I Mean Guys Do U Get Disgusted?? They Are'nt Straight!! To who do u think those love songs goes out to!!! Its abt guys expressing his love to another guy!! WTF!!! I dun want to hear ur careless whispers i dun wanna feel ur love tonight!! Seriously No I Dun Want!! Wads wrong wit girls tat u hafta love guys!!! Can u imagine me singing sappy love songs to another guy!! I'll be a freaking fugitive man!! Running away from straight men tat is tryin to burn me alive!! Ok seriously their are songs are superb!! But everytime i listen to their songs i hafta lie to myself and tell myself tat this is man singing a song tat goes to a girl!!! Shitty man why does unstraight men always sing great songs!!! Damn It!!

As this life gets colder
And the devil inside
Tells you to give up!!

2005-10-31T08:12:00.000-08:00

I HATE SCUMBAGS!!!

I hate ppl who blame their own fucking bloody tragedies on oth fucking ppl!!! I hate ppl who blame their fucking problems on other ppl when they are the cause of it!!! Have it ever crossed ur mind tat every problem tat has arised is somehow caused by u in someway or another!!! I hate ppl who neva want to admit their wrongs!!! I hate ppl who ask me for the bloody lighter and ashtray when there is so many ashytrays and lighters out there!!! I hate ppl who thinks tat they are god's bloody gift to humans!!! Everyone tat lives is someway contibuting to the world!!! Without trash and those ppl who litters, can u imagine how many bloody ppl out there who wld be left jobless!!! There wont be any Sembawang Corp all tat rubbish company!!! If everyone is rich, do u think the public toilets wld clean and ur streets clear off trash!!! Do u think there wld be the word 'tall' in the dictionary if there werent any short ppl!!! Unless u're God, u can't bloody live alone in this bloody world!!! Someone is just Driving me to insanity not gonna say who!!! If suicide wasnt forbidden, pusara abadi i would be in 2001!!! I've been suffering too long!!! Can Someone Just Replace My Life? Pls?

2005-10-25T06:19:00.000-07:00

Prayers For You!!!

YA ALLAH... Terangilah Kuburnye... Hiasnye Dgn Bunga Bunga Dari SyurgaMu... Lapangkanlah Kuburnye... Jagalah Jasadnye Supaya Ia Tidak Dimakan Zaman... Ampunilah Dosa Dosa Nye... Tempatkan Die Di Syurgamu Kerna Sesungguhnye Die Seorang Yg Mulia Dan Baik Hati... Sayangilah Die Kerna Sesungguhnye Tiada Sesiapa Dpt Menyanginye Lebih Selain Dari Mu... Moga Die Selalu Di Dlm Doa Doa Org Yg Menyanginye... Sampaikanlah Al Fatihah Ku Kepada Nye!!

Thinking of the day
When you went away
What a life to take
What a bond to break
I'll be missing you!!

I'll Be Missin You!!! Mak Mah!!

2005-10-25T05:38:00.000-07:00

If You Leave Dun Leave Now!! PLS!!

Why do good ppl have to go so fast?? When u tot tat the person would stay long, they just leave u in a sudden... Mak Mah!!! U're one of the nicest person i've ever met... Everyone loves u... I wished u cld stay longer... Wished we cld all go to ur house for hari raya and have gd old laughters... U being Amuk in SDO... U calling me Badang... Im gonna miss all tat... If i cld turn back time to last friday, i wld ask for forgiveness and put a smile on ur face... The last day i saw u, u didnt have the smile u always had... Why am i so stupid not to c the different thing in you... U Will Always Be In My Prayers... Im sorry i cldnt make it to ur funeral... But i'll promise u i'll visit u... If ever anyone were to ask me who is Mak Mah, i'll say "She's Someone Who Everyones Loves"... I Have Nothing But Gd Words For U...

IT''LL NEVA BE THE SAME WITOUT U!!!
IT'LL NEVA BE!!!
NEVA BE!!!

24 OCT 2005... IN MEMORY ALWAYS...
MAK MAH... MAMA...

2005-10-16T06:40:00.000-07:00

Commitments!!!

Esp in love department!!! Who the hell has love commitments at the age of 17... U guys are sick if u have love commitments at this age... This type of things is only suitable for ppl tat is over 25... The time when u're too old to do varieties of things so u just lay it all down and stick to one like career love all tat crap... Commitments, they just bloody chain u down from doing any fun stuff... Freedom Or Being Tied Down?

Ok the reason im saying all this is cos i cant commit... I hate Commitments cos i cant have any... Or am i just scared of it... Scared tat the thing im committed to just backfires right at ma face... Commitments are just the scariest things ever...

Watching terrible tv, it kills all thought
Getting spacier than, an astronaut…
Making out with people, I hardly know or like
I can’t believe what I do, late at night

I wanna know what it’s like
On the inside of love
I’m standing at the gates
I see the beauty above

Only when we get to see, the aerial view
Will the patterns show, we’ll know what to do
I know the last page so well, I can’t read the first
So I just don’t start, it’s getting worse

I wanna know what it’s like
On the inside of love
I’m standing at the gates
I see the beauty above

I wanna know what it’s like
On the inside of love
I can’t find my way in
I try again and again

I’m on the outside of love
Always under or above
I can't find my way in
I try again and again

I'm on the outside of love
Always under or above
Must be a different view
To be a me with a you

I wanna know what its like
On the inside of love
I'm standing at the gates
I see the beauty above
I wanna know what its like
On the inside of love
Of course i’ll be alright
I just had a bad night
I had a bad night....

2005-10-09T08:15:00.000-07:00

It Takes Only One Action One Word To Loose Everything!!

Live Life To The Fullest But Wit Limits!!

There Are Just Somethings U Cant Get So Dont Dwell On It!!

Why Are U Living In The Past When The Future Awaits U!!!

Wad U Want Is Not Always Wad U Need!!!

Dun Try To Be Someone Tat U Neva Always Wanted To Be!!!

Learn To Get Back On Your Own Two Feets When U Fall!!!

The Biggest Mistake You Can Ever Make Is Afraid Of Making One!!!

2005-10-06T16:03:00.000-07:00

Sean Paul!!!

Seriously man this guy shld stop his reggae nonsense cos its not reggae he's singing... Can anyone like tell me wad he's singing witout looking at his lyrics first... And his slank, jamaican slank, is like farking over sia... Even freaking jamaican dun sing or talk like tat... His like a aklaklakla tryin to be jamaicna... His singing is like somekind of a new language... They shld catogarise it as a new WTF language... All i hear in We'll Be Burning is "just give me the cheese i'll make a small kway teow... bla bla please kway teow kway teow more bla bla bla" And some "Legalize It" which i assume is abt dope... Is tat how u ask ppl to legalize it... Is like who the fark wanna give dope to crazy ppl... Ppl wld be crazy if they legalize dope wit this type of ppl ard...N ya his dances!!! Im laughin ma ass off seein the way he dance... Not tat im saying i can dance betta... Seriously get some dance lesson before making a video... Get a microphone stand and just sing... Dun Dance!!! Man this guy is tryin too hard... I think he shld like sing and dance at the old folks home... U noe give the old folks some great laughing they neva had for years... I bet they wld be like "All this while i tot twist was lame, but afta seeing this i dun think anything cld be any lamer"... The only song i like is Baby Boy and not cos of him.. Its bcos Beyonce is there... At least she is singing some sense and dance perfectly well... Ok I've said enuff...

Futures made of virtual insanity
Now always seem, to be governed by this love we have
For useless, twisting of our new technology
Oh now there's no sound for we all live underground...

Jamiroquai- Virtual Insanity!!

2005-09-30T06:51:00.000-07:00

Living in the days of the same old days!!!

FARK IM FARKED UP!!!

A Silent Wish: Pls Pls Let Tmr Be The Start Of New Things...
Goal: Make Everyone i know smile...

All my life I've been searching for something
Something never comes, never leads to nothing
Nothing satisfies, but I'm getting close
Closer to the prize at the end of the rope
All night long I dream of the day
When it comes around and it's taken away!!

To Piccolo: Happy Birthday!!

2005-09-23T06:20:00.000-07:00

Walk Me Out Of Here... Im In Pain...

Wad Is Life? Izzit Living Then Die? Achieving your biggest dream and live happily then die? Avoid doing bad stuff and do everything religious then die and go to heaven? Why do god let us live in this world without telling us the reason why we are living? Or is life a jigsaw puzzle? U need to finish it to see the whole picture... The whole picture of life...

Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given

I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I don't understand

I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste

I don't want to die
But I ain't keen on living either
Before I fall in love
I'm preparing to leave her
I scare myself to death
That's why I keep on running
Before I've arrived
I can see myself coming

I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
And I need to feel real love
And a life ever after
I cannot give it up

I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running through my veins
To go to waste

I just wanna feel real love
In a life ever after
There's a hole in my soul
You can see it in my face
It's a real big place

Come and hold my hand
I want to contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand

Ignore All The Love In The Lyrics....
Feel- Robbie William...

2005-09-18T10:15:00.000-07:00

Take A Look At Me Now... There's Just An Empty!!!

Im So Empty... Can Someone Just Feel Me Up Wit Something... Anything? Just for me to feel something... Anything? I dun know wads bothering me... Love Is not the problem (Btw, Love Is The Number One In Problem Chart)... Friends Is not the problem... Family too... So Wad The Fark Izzit? There's just this feelings i miss... Izzit the feeling to feel... Only God Knows...

Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, that's life
Trying to make ends meet
You're a slave to money then, you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
Ya know, the one that takes you
To the places where all the things meet, yeah

Wont changeI can't change (x3)
But i'm here in my modeI am here in my mode
But I'm a million different people from one day to the next
I can't change my mode no, no, no, no, no

Well I never pray, but tonight I'm on my knees yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me yea
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airways are clean and theres nobody singing to me now

Wont changeI can't change (x3)
But I'm here in my modeI am here in my mode
And I'm a million different people from one day to the next
I can't change my mode no, no, no, no, no
(have u ever been down)
I can't change it
I can't change it....

BitterSweet Symphony- Cruel Intentions... At least there's a song tat explains how i feel...

2005-09-11T11:07:00.000-07:00

True And Also A Fact!

Three important rules for breaking up
Don't put off breaking up when u know u want to
Prolonging the situation only makes it worse
Tell him honestly, simply, kindly, but firmly
Don't make a big production
Don't make up an elaborate story
This will help you avoid a big tear jerking scene
If you wanna date other people say so
Be prepared for the boy to feel hurt and rejected
Even if u've gone together for only a short time,
And haven't been too serious,
There's still a feeling of rejection
When someone says she prefers the company of others
To your exclusive company,
But if u're honest and direct,
N avoid making flowery emotional speech when u break the news,
The boy will respect u for ur frankness,
And honestly he'll appreciate the kind of straight foward manner
In which u told him your decision
Unless he's a real jerk or a cry baby u will remain friends

Popular by Nada Surf!!
Girls U Noe Wad To Do!!

Sarah: Dun worry abt a lil thing cos every lil thing is gonna be alrite... I dun think tat phrase will make u feel any betta... Although its true... Anyway if u need anything, Ur bro fuddy wld be here... Smile?

2005-09-06T07:20:00.000-07:00

Singers And Bands!!

First In Ma List:

Bob Marley: Who can beat this guy, man!! He sings love, freedom, slavery.... He's a farking all rounder... Lol... One of the greatest singer eva!! Legend Man!! Songs: Red Red Wine, Buffalo Soldier, Is This Love, Waiting In Vain, One Love, Three Little Birds!!!

Second:

Iklim: C'mon man who can write jiwang malay songs like this guy.... He's unbeatable man... Wit his Pekat and Serak voice... Damn tats fine... True Malay Rocker Classic... Songs: Suci Dalam Debu, Mimpi Yang Pulang, Aduhai Seribu Kali Sayang!!!
Jamal Abdillah: I love this guy man... The charming singer... He has this unique voice... Alamak his hair Fuyoh!!!!! Songs: Kekasih Awal Dan Akhir, Sandarkan Pada Kenangan, Azura!!!

Third:

Ub40: U give this guy a normal song and he turns it into reggae... U'll just forget who the original singer is... Superb Superb!!! Singers who has their songs taken by this grp can say bye bye... Seriously gd!!! Songs: Every Breath U Take (Originally By Police), Only Fool Rush In (Elvis Presley Beaten By Ub40), Light My Fire (Ori By The Doors), Kingston Town!!!

Oth Fine Singers And Band:

Cake, Maroon Five, Janis Joplin, No doubt, Cradle Of Filth, Papa Roach, James Blunt, Nada Surf, Aqualung, Hot Hot Heat, The Cardigans, The Wonders, Fugees, The Afters, The Ramones, Audioslave, Sophie Ellis Bextor, The Hives, The Vines, The Cranberries and many more!!!

Goodbye My Lover- James Blunt!! Power!!!

2005-09-02T05:30:00.000-07:00

Teacher's Day!!! First of all i wld like to thank SARAH!!! Thankz for the rasta drum and bangle!!! Love it so much... Still dunno how to play... Lol... Im tryin ma best to play... Anyways the whole teacher performance was too damn long.... To me the best performance was the samba thingy... I always tot dillon was gd for nothing... But the performance change it all... He was seriously gd Ya piccolo i tot u were going to dance or something... Lol... Hydher was huge... HUGE!!! Im so jealous... Im like so tiny.... Lol... Anyway life's been a bore... Hoping something or someone cld come and just give a twist to it... Maybe I Just Need Ma Frens!!

Beautiful Love- The Afters... Im Loving It!!! Beautiful Song....

2005-08-29T09:13:00.001-07:00

SIN CITY!!! Its like the best black and white english movie i've eva seen... Maybe bcos its the only black white english movie i've seen... The movie has no actual storyline and its kinda confusing too... But who cares the action is damn superb... The movie is basically abt three guys killing oths just to protect the woman they love... One killed himself One got death sentence One risked his life... Does love really worth dyin for? Anyways the babes are hot... Babes wit guns and samurai swords... I surrender Sista!! Jessica alba is *Fuad's Speechless*... Some old basket got kissed by jessica... BRUCE WILLIS!!!!!!! FARK!!!!! Lucky i wasnt in da movie... Damn Bruce Willis wld be lucky if he isnt dead by the time the movie ends... Bloody Cheekopeh... The only nice thing abt bruce willis is his killing phrase... Oth than tat wit jessica alba and all it aint nice... Arghhh!!

Phrase of killing for bruce willis:
First you take away his weapon.... Both of them...
Message to the evil guy from fuad:
No Father's day for u bruda....

2005-08-29T09:13:00.000-07:00

BE YOURSELF- Audioslave

Someone falls to pieces
Sleeping all alone
Someone kills the pain
Spinning in the silence
She finally drifts away
Someone gets excited
In a chapel yard
And catches a boquet
Another lays a dozen
White roses on a grave

Yeah
And be yourself is all that you can do, yeah
To be yourself is all that you can do

Someone finds salvation
In everyone
Another only pain
Someone tries to hide himself
Down inside himself he prays
Someone swears his true love
Until the end of time
Another runs away
Separate or united
Healthy or insane

Yeah
And be yourself is all that you can do
[all that you can do]
To be yourself is all that you can do
[all that you can do]
To be yourself is all that you can do
[all that you can do]
To be yourself is all that you can do
Even when you've paid enough

Been put upon, or been held up
With every single memory of
The good or bad, faces of luck
Don't lose any sleep tonight
I'm sure everything will end up alright
You may win or lose

But to be yourself is all that you can do, yeah
To be yourself is all that you can do, oh [x3]
[all that you can do]
And to be yourself is all that you can
To be yourself is all that you can
Be yourself is all that you can do

BE YOURSELF!!!!

2005-08-25T08:15:00.000-07:00

Wedding Crashers!!! It was a great show overall... It has crappy storyline... Guy neva found happiness in wad he does... Then he found his true love whom is already engaged... Finally the girl thinks tat her fiance is an assholic guy not worth it so she dumps him and goes for the guy... I've seen tat!!! THE WEDDING SINGER!!! They made it a gd show by covering up the CRAPPY storyline wit comedy... Gotta give them credit for tat... They shld make more movies like Edward Scissorhands Or Forrest Gump!!! Not forgetting Rambo!!! The guy who killed the whole legion of army... Wit a gun and two straps of ammo!!! Rambo is a soldier tat comes only once in infinity years!!! He is a bloody rare breed... Terrorist wld be pissing in their pants on the sight rambo... *Salute* The one u guys wld'nt want to mess ard wit... CLASSIC!!!

Goodnight Goodnight- Hot Hot Heat!! HOT!!!

SARAH!!! I Miss U And Ur HYPER Mode!!!

2005-08-21T06:10:00.000-07:00

No matter how rough life cld be!! I will try ma best to face it wit smile... Ma Best I Promise!!!

Yesterday!!! Two jappy waved me gdbye... I bumped ma butt onto the metal corner of the chair and it was painful ok... Bone colliding wit metal ouch if ahmad nvm lah surely no feeling one... Lol... So i rubbed it to make it feel betta... Lol... Omg cant believe they at the back looking at me!!! Wtf!!! One whole bunch of japanese there... I bet the adults wished they had samurai swords to hara kiri ma ass off... Then this 2 jappy girls was like smiling at me and suddenly both of them waved and said bubbye....

Today!!! Disastrous Horrendous Horribble!!! All farking delayed flights!!! 3 HOUR DELAYED DEPARTURE!!! I managed to pull it all out wit smile!!!

2005-08-12T05:53:00.000-07:00

Bye Bye!! I Hate Barbers!! Lol... They cut ma bloody curly version beatles hairstlye into dunno wad!! Nak Kata Marlet Bukan Nak Kata Mohawk Bukan Nak Kata Jamal Abdillah Bukan Nak Kata Saleem Iklim Bukan!!! Aiyoyoyo!!! Nvm wad is done is done... Jenny!!! When u tot u are the blurrest person eva, someone just comes into ur life and just shatters tat title... Can u believe it im not the blurrest sotong... One month working, she till can teach her understudy to come 10 mins before the plane departs.... Love her blurness!! Jenny Jenny!!! I want to do flight wit ya... I wanna laugh ma ass off... Lol... Pls Pls!!

To All Ma O Level Frens: No worries u guys still have november paper... Look on the bright side u still have november paper to do well in... Add in more phrasa berbunga or maybe more peribahasa... Ok im not helping... Use ur current result as a fuel for ur passion to do well, Aight? Smile Anyone?

Kawan Kawan!!! I Have A Confession To Make!!!
I Love U Guys!!

2005-08-03T04:18:00.000-07:00

Pak Ad, Uncle Ad, Cik Fuad Or Pak Anjang? Im A Pakcik Already!!! My Second Day Becoming A Pakcik!! His name is Arfan and my mom says he looks like me...Oh No!!! I dun want him to look like a gremlin!!! Nevamind im sure he will look diff when he grows up... Humans change looks seven times in a lifetime... HE HAS WAVY CURLY HAIR!!! Kewl huh!! Uncle and Nephew same same hair cant wait for tat... We'll relive the 80s!! The other day this steward said MA HAIR WAS VOGUE!!! Wth Kinda scary cos he was the soft type... I was lucky he didnt touch ma hair... Lol...

Farhan!!! Wrong lah!! U 70s... The time when hippies rule the world... Wuahahaha!!!

Three Cheers To Outrageous Hair!!

2005-08-03T03:07:00.000-07:00

Rita!! Rita is someone which i call a biatch... A big one!! She thinks she farking pretty to give a farking attitude... Snatch ppl's track sheet while ppl doing our job... Wth get back in line and just wait for ur farking turn biatch... When i say the bloody UMs has declined ur bloody assistance, just F Off wit the bloody additional tat i gave u!!! Haiyoh ppl nowadays... Jahanam Betol!!! Innocent face but bloody attitude... I guess i must'nt judge a book by its cover...

Is this skin nice? If it is give it a thumbs up...
=)))

2005-07-31T06:52:00.000-07:00

My Job!!! I love it!!! There's like so many great ppl tat can really make u smile... It's like farking teletubbies land... Where u wont get any worries cos there will always Dipsy, Tinky Winky, Lala And Poh by ur side... Kewl Huh!!! When u have ticket down, there will always be Dipsy by ur side ticking the names out... When u need someone to acompany u in between flights, there will be Tinky Winky smoking wit u beside Tranfer F... Enough said I Love My Job!!!!

2005-07-26T06:44:00.000-07:00

Where is that rainbow I've been praying for!!! Why does it take so long for tat dark cloud to turn blue... When is this showers of pain gonna end... Where is ma bright sunshiny day... Wads wrong wit me... Is it tat time of the month when girls get all the mood seasons all in one day... Am i experiencing tat... Oh man i hope tats not it... I noe how terrible guys can suffer when girls are in tat time of the month... DISASTROUS!! Ok i'll just make it short and sweet... IM NOT MYSELF!!! I think i have some screw loose i say ppl screw loose but me maself experiencing it, Rite Piccolo? Lol... Omg can u c ma post its like from confuse guy to some freako... Man i definitely have mood swing... OMG!!!!!!!!

I Can't Deny This...
I Still Love You!!

2005-07-23T05:32:00.000-07:00

Shizzit!!! My phone got washed up again second time... Man shldnt have gotten mad wit my mum for not checking ma pants before washing it... But wad to do wad is done is done... Like ma dad use to say " Da ajal barang tu ape nak buat" Inalillah... Nothing really last... Nothing last forever... Feelings change Ppl change Things breakdown Ppl die... Wad to do its part of life... Everyone's experiencing it.... Hmmm Short ppl become tall Tall ppl become short?? Nah tat wont happen... Lol...

NOTHING LAST REMEMBER THAT FUAD!!!
SO IF ANYTHING'S GONE, U HAVE EXPECTED IT TO HAPPEN!!!
NOTHING TO GRIEF ABT!!! NOTHING LAST!!!

2005-07-10T22:14:00.000-07:00

I Was Too High!!! I was too high to realise tat life can hit the bottom point at anytime... I always tot that nothing cld break me... No words No action cld break me but I Was Wrong... I Have Been Wrong... I Am Wrong... I guess i've been weak all along... Im in pieces now... Im neva wanna pick up the pieces of me for now... I wanna be hurt so i cld learn not to take advantage of the things tat i have and of the things tat everyone has given to me... Im a FOOL... Always have been...
Is someone gettin the best the best the best of you... Im sorry tat i didnt give the best of me... Did i even have the best to offer... Did i even have anything to offer... IM NOBODY!!! I have NOTHING!! NOTHING!!! IM A FOOL!!!

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you
Are you gone and onto someone new
I needed somewhere to hang my head without your noose
You gave me something that I didn't have but had no use
I was too weak to give in, too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again but I break loose
My head is giving me life or death but I can't choose

Still Loving You!!

2005-07-06T03:20:00.000-07:00

Departures!!! Im startin to like departures more than arrivals... Departures are tiring, but when u finish it and there's no down ticket, u feel as though u accomplish something big... Lol... I just hope i dun get Abdullah as my TLO when doin departure... Tat Arsehole... Feel like stuffin up walkie inside his ass... He reminds me of Mr Benjamin Thomas... The guy wit chopsticks leg... The guy who always got problem wit oth ppl... I think this ppl have troubled childhood days or something... Neva get enuff love or something... Tats y now they are making oth ppl's life miserable... U hate me haha u think i care... Lol... Wad comes ard goes ard... They'll have their happy days one day... U noe wad i mean by happy... *Sinister Smile* =D... Lol...

To Her: I know i haven been calling u... Im sorry... I wont give any reasons for tat... Cos reasons are a lame way to cover up mistakes... I want u to noe i always have the three words for u... Always have... I Love You..

Ur the first thing on mind when i open ma eyes...
N
Ur the last thing on my mind before i close ma eyes...

Love You!

2005-06-29T16:14:00.000-07:00

Where Do I Begin

Where do I begin
To tell the story of how great a love can be
The sweet love story that is older than the sea
The simple truth about the love she brings to me
Where do I start

With her first hello
She gave new meaning to this empty world of mine
There’d never be another love, another time
She came into my life and made the living fine
She fills my heart

She fills my heart with very special things
With angels’ songs , with wild imaginings
She fills my soul with so much love
That anywhere I go I’m never lonely
With her around, who could be lonely
I reach for her hand it’s always there

How long does it last
Can love be measured by the hours in a day
I have no answers now but this much I can say
I know I’ll need her till the stars all burn away
And she’ll be there

Nice oldies!! One of ma fav!! Nice huh? Nice huh? Haha...

You're my everything...

2005-06-24T04:34:00.000-07:00

Anaconda!!! Damn!!! Who plays wit Anaconda in da bus are sick in da mind... Damn if u guys are getting high rent a room PLS!!! The bus is not a playground for god's sake!!! Kissing and hugging are ok but Anaconda Taming in the bus damn tats way too far... Aiyoh dunno wad the youth in singapore are turning into... Enuff wit the Anaconda... Damn Batman Begins Rocks... Neva like batman before... I hate superheroes wit cape and superheroes who wear undies on the outside like superman... But the movie really change it all... I love batman now... How i wish i cld be him... Haha... Still he cant beat Spidey and Wolverine!!! Talking abt superheroes wit undies... Do anyone noe y they wear their undies outside?? She said its cos they wanna show off their undies size... Lol... Damn she really noes how to make me laugh... I Love Her!!

You shot an arrow through my heart...
Loving U....

2005-06-20T02:58:00.000-07:00

Arrivals!!! First day solo... Had to do this SQ883 alone... Lucky no meet and assist cases.... I think i need to request for a day of ojt... Im still blurred... Haha... Actually doing ojt is much fun... Can disturb mentors... Damn Gina was hot head when i say she teach me nonsense... Haha... Ya forgot to ask her teach me Phillipines... I forgot how it sounds... I think she said som som pat wad crap... Haha... Airport stuffs are freaking cheap too!! Giorgio Armani specs for 75 bucks damn... Rayban specs !!!damn!!!so nice!!!

She's Coming Back Today!!!
Missin Her Badly!!!
I Need U And I Love U, Baby...

Lovin U Madly...

2005-06-12T18:05:00.000-07:00

Ganja Or Red Red Wine!!! I think i really need ganja rite now... Feel high Forget abt the world for a moment... Or maybe red red wine is enough to make me forget abt it... I wish i was still working at furama... Can get red wine so easily... Im not angry at u... Im not sad... Maybe im just a little bit hurt... But im not angry upset or dissapointed... I Love U....

And you may not think I care for you
When you know down inside that I really do
And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love?

2005-06-11T04:05:00.000-07:00

Hospitalized!!! Man i was thinking of only gettin an mc... But later got maself into ward 44 bed 27... 2 of the patient there are kinda siao... One ask the nurse for tiger beer... The oth one ask me to go follow him smoke at the staircase then got a warned by the nurse... I guess its hard for me to stop smoking... Smoke although im sick... haiz... Anyway vomited blood last three days... But it was just a minor stomach bleeding... Normal thing... Tats wad the doc said... Bloody hell doc dun noe how to take blood... 4 times inject and still no blood... Arghhh... Glad to be back home... No need to c naked old man walking ard in the ward... Farking hell old man everytime come out of toilet surely naked... Kick his small white ass then he noe... HAHA...

I can't believe that it's real
The way that you make me feel
A burning deep down inside
A love that I cannot hide

Thinking Of U...
Hoping U're feeling the same,,,

2005-06-02T07:16:00.000-07:00

Im Not Okay!!! Im not myself... I dunno wad telah happen to me... Someone tell me wads wrong wit me... May be i just need sometime to figure out wads bothering me... Anyway got weird sickness yesterday... Fever is like coming and going maybe Farhan's rite The reservoir is keras... Shall not swim there no more... Taubat Taubat... Farhan nice work helping Roslizah out wit the assesment... U almost made Mr Mahmood say Bye Bye to her!! Haiyoh!!

I believe in you
You know the door to my very soul.
You're the light in my deepest darkest hour
You're my saviour when I fall

U were mesmerized by the baboon's Ass
Im mesmerized by ur love... =)

2005-05-25T10:02:00.000-07:00

Library!!! Went to library... Met up wit Fahimah Jasmi and Afroz!! Just sit ard talk here talk there... Then came ma kuz... Lucky he was not like a skinhead asshole just now... If he was, im sure he will shoot everyone there wit his nice @!*$#% words... Afta tat she came... Man didnt get to talk wit her... How i wish i cld give a flying kick to the shy side of me.... WAHTAH out of me!!! Anyway wth is wrong wit the provision shops nowadays... Dunno how to earn $$$... Ppl wanna buy ciggs dun let... No Balls... Lol... Its like im contibuting to ur shop... Nowadays there are lesser and lesser smokers in Sg... And im like making them earn more $$$ but they dun want... WTF rite?? Dunno how to appreciate!!! Screw Loose Provision Shop Owners!!!

I used to say, 'I' and 'me
'Now its 'us', now its 'we'

I'll Be There To Catch You
When You Fall..
I Will...

2005-05-22T20:19:00.000-07:00

Illegal Activities!! Went fishing and swimming at Tampines Quarry and Bedok Reservoir... Man Bedok Reservoir's water is like damn soothing... Its like so pure... I dun mind drowning in the reservoir!! The water is heaven!! But the tampines quarry is like opposite... Its shitty the water is damn keroh and its very dangerous to swim in!!! Yesterday went to a wedding... Became kendarat... Its was damn tiring!!! I made the place like a track field... Walk ard in rounds... Lol...

I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life

Thankz For Everything!
Luv ya!

2005-05-18T07:59:00.000-07:00

My IPOD is scaring me!!!
Omg it is as if it noes wad im feeling!!!
Listen to GANJA(my ipod) just now and it was like playing all the songs tat explains wad i felt!!!
Its like i kept prssing next next next until abt 30 something songs
And its still plays the songs tat explain wad i felt just now!!!
Its freaking me out!!!

Her bro is super nice n looks fierce when he is quiet...
I hope i made a gd impression!!!

My life will never be the same
‘Cause girl, you came and changed
The way I walk
The way I talk

You rocked my world, you know you did (Oh)
And everything I’m gonna give (You rocked my world)
And there ain’t nothing we could find
Someone like you to call mine

2005-05-17T02:56:00.000-07:00

Screwed Up Day!!!! First of all i wld like to say tat i am a big asshole... Yesh i am a totally big one... Made her wait for like 40 mins... Haiz not only tat she smiled when i met up wit her... She's like the nicest and the sweetest person i have eva met... All ma plan screwed up today... Didnt get to watch House Of Wax... The stupid sundal ah ma doesnt let us thru to the cinema just bcos she didnt bring her IC... Lol...Then have to watch this boring movie... The Interpreter... Before tat had an interview n ma voice was like trembling... Wtf... Screwed Up Day!!!

i don't want to hold back, i don't want to slip down
i don't want to think back to the one thing that i know i should have done
i don't want to doubt you, know everything about you
i don't want to sit across the table from you wishing i could run

i want to love you madly
i want to love you now
i want to love you madly (oh wait)
i want to love you, love you, love you madly

Love You!!

2005-05-10T09:06:00.000-07:00

Fullmoon bar... Woahh oldies songs... Cool Thing... I love oldies song esp Build Me Up Buttercup Baby... Foods great... Crab lol tats like ma first time i willingly wanna eat it... Afta tat got a small stomach upset... Man crabs totally smells gd n taste gd too... But im allergic to it... Mussels and the custard were superb!!! POOL!!! lol i played like a stupid ass clown... Cant even hit anything right... Ahmad played gd but Farhan u r like damn lucky... lol... But in the end we still win.. Ahmad's dad was like great he still noes how to play afta like sixteen years... Had a great time but not until i found out i've made her wait for 2 hours... Im an asshole for tat... i admit i am...

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams

I cant help thinkin abt U....

2005-05-02T19:52:00.000-07:00

Didnt noe wad struck me yesterday... i woke up took a ladder... took all the dirty fans down n clean it... i did it witout being told to!!! and tats like wow!!! maybe its because of how she made me feel the day b4 yest... man she almost make me believe tat i cld fly... lucky for me i noe tat i cant if not i'll probably be dead rite now... lol... Didnt noe tat life could have such a great twist to it!!! Life was dull till she came along n change it all... The Weekends were SUPERB!!! how i wish it neva end... U always noe how to make me smile... =)

Stab Me Kill Me Kick Me Punch Me Insult Me Burn Anything Tat I Own
This Smile Will Always Stay...

Tiada Ku Sangka
Tiba2 Kau Dtg Bawa Cahaya...

4 9455 23 647746 968 259297....
I WILL...

2005-04-28T03:42:00.000-07:00

Is ma wait gonna end soon?? will it?? will it?? will it??

2005-04-05T16:02:00.000-07:00

let me tell ya abt a guy at ma workplace... he's old in his mid fifties i think... ya may not think this guy is special in anyway... ya ma think this guy is farkin old fag who is workin to support his family... n make sures there's food on the table every single day... man ya wrong... this guy has a wife who is 2 decades younger than him!!!! wtf!!! n still have a bloody scandal tat is also farkin 2 decades younger than him... isnt he great or wad!!! tat cheeky old bastard... not onli tat he is bloody hell targetin another woman who is workin at a cofeeshop near ma house... im sorry its not a woman actually its more like teenage to me.... n he is also planing to meet another woman on sat... i dun mind him meeting this woman as she was like onli 15 years younger than him... unlike his scandal n wife which is like 20 years younger than him... every night witout fail his scandal will sms n call... man he showed me the message his scandal sent to him... man tat was bloody hell horny man... its too horny so i cant blog it... fark tat guy man... im like almost 17 now n i haven even have one gf... n he is like fifty++ n have a wife n a bloody horny scandal... actually both his wife n scandal his horny... lol... man i dunno if his born wit charm tat can make woman go weak on their knees or women are just desperate... n ya tat bloody old fag stole ma cig box n ma tobacco n ma phonecard when i was asleep... bloody hell... lol... aiyah but who cares he wanna steal... i dun care... the tobacco he smokes is HARAM!!! lol...

2005-03-21T08:49:00.001-08:00

back from work... boss called n asked me to go back home... its was not hooray hooray thing for me... fark i watse ma bloody fare... n 2 days no pay... today is one heck of day... got scare by danial so many times in da cinema... i nearly died sia... boogeyman was not scary at all but the sound effect was freaking shit... ya aishah bought an ipod mini already... omg its a freakin ipod mini family... me wit green... ahmad wit blue... danial wit gold... aishah wit pink... n also a farkin freakin baby ipod shuffle owned by afroz... hahahahaha....

Im not a freakin puppet
U're not my farkin puppeteer

SO FARK OFF!!!!!

2005-03-09T03:28:00.000-08:00

its been so long since i update ma blog... anyway ma new supervisor crappy shit arsehole... dun even trust his workers... wtf always farkin look for me when things are lost... i wonder would he come n find me if he lost his farkin balls... shit head supervisor always finish his task late... so we could finish up the whole thing for him... shit head... farkin fark head supervisor... neva like tat Ahole... the oth 2 new workers are fine... but this farkin new supervisor is a farkin shit hole...

2005-02-26T00:52:00.000-08:00

Vamonos!
Save me from this prison, Lord help me get away
Cause only you can save me now, from this misery
I've been lost in my own place and I'm gettin' weary
How far is heaven
And I know that I need to change my ways of livin'
How far is heaven
Lord can you tell me
I've been locked up way too long in this crazy world
How far is heaven
And I just keep on prayin' Lord, and just keep on livin'
How far is heaven
Yeah, Lord can you tell me
How far is heaven (Cause I just gotta know how far, yeah)
How far is heaven (Yeah, Lord can you tell me)
Tu que estas en alto cielo
Hechame tu bendicion
Cause I know there's a better place than this place I'm living
How far is heaven
So I just got to have some faith and just keep on giving
How far is heaven (Yeah, Lord can you tell me)
How far is heaven (Cause I just got to know how far, yeah)
How far is heaven (Yeah, Lord can you tell me)
How far is heaven (Cause I just gotta know how far)
I just want to know how far

2005-02-22T05:39:00.000-08:00

To Marlboro,

Marlboro... ARGHHHH!!! i wanna say to u i miss u so much!!!! I LOVE U!!! sorry i had to keep myself away from u...since u been gone i've been lost witout a trace... Did u know tat i miss u so much tat it is tearin me apart... i used to think nothing could keep us keep us apart but i was wrong... 11 dollars is too much for me... sob sob... man but i still cant forget tat time i held u in between ma fingers n i said i would neva leave u... im sorry i had too... sob sob... =(... i wont forget the times u keep reminding me ta theret is nothing in life to worry abt... thankz for makin me stronger in life... im sorry but this is gonna be ma last letter to ya.... sob sob!! I will always be missing u!!

Always Yours,
GANJA

2005-02-20T05:55:00.000-08:00

tried to stop today.... but cannot resist... hey at least i took onli one stick today... today i have like cut down from 20 sticks to one... woohoo... gotta keep this goin... i wanna stop but its like red red wine to me.. its makes me forget tat i need her so.. i sure cant live witout it... its like ma true love... always by ma side when i need it... always take ma blues away... like no oth person can... a fren juz reminded me of how it used to take ma worries away... n now like im leavin it... itz very hard for me... but i have to do it!! for ma own gd...

why am i been stayin for so long?
been waitin in vain for quite some time
tried to leave
there is juz something abt her
tat makes it so hard
to step one foot away

2005-02-18T03:41:00.000-08:00

=D haha farhan fendi.... sorry i had to pick up velu's call... hey maybe he put a spell on me to pick up... i cant resist his powers and had to pick up k... no my fault... lol... haha u guys finished 4th floor at 3... wow tats super fast... lol... surely finish at 5.30 one... i noe its hard for u guys to do work witout me... but c'mon u gotta be independent... dun always count on me k... lol... anyway meridien was fun man... haha esp Boi... fark tat guy is super funny... lol... n ahmad i noe wad u have been doin wit Boi everyday... naughty boy ah ahmad... lol... i guess the horniness of the ppl in meridien n furama is abt da same... all full of horny bastards... man fark i shld have work at meridien today... heard there's alot of chick finish partyin at spark durin break time... man...

Red Red Marl!! Love till I Die! =}

2005-02-15T06:02:00.000-08:00

Red, red wine
Red, red wine goes to my head
Makes me forget that I still need her so

Red, red wine, it's up to you
All I can do I've done
Memories won't go, memories won't go

I'd have sworn, that with time
Thoughts of you would leave my head
I was wrong, now I find
Just one thing makes me forget

Red, red wine, stay close to me
Don't let me be alone
It's tearing apart my blue heart

I'd have sworn, that with time
Thoughts of you would leave my head
I was wrong, now I find
Just one thing makes me forget

Red, red wine, stay close to me
Don't let me be alone
It's tearing apart my blue blue heart

Red red wine, you make me feel so fine
You keep me rockin' all of the time
Red red wine, you make me feel so grand
I feel a million dollar when you're just in my hand
Red red wine, you make me feel so sad
Any time I see you go, it make me feel bad
Red red wine, you make me feel so fine
Monkey back and ease up on the sweet deadline

Red red wine, you give me holy pahzing
Holy pahzing, you make me do my own thing
Red red wine, you give me not awful love
Your kind of lovin' like a blessing from above
Red red wine, I loved you right from the start
Right from the start, with all of my heart
Red red wine in an eighties style
Red red wine in a modern beat style
Yeah

Give me a little time, let me clear out my mind
Give me a little time, let me clear out my mind
Give me red wine, the kind make me feel fine
You make me feel fine all of the time
Red red wine, you make me feel so fine
Monkey back and ease up on the sweet deadline
The line broke, the money get choked
Bunbah, ganjapani, little rubber boat
Red red wine, I'm gonna hold on to you
Hold on to you 'cause I know you love truth
Red red wine, I'm gonna love you till I die
Love you till I die, and that's no lie
Red red wine, can't get your off my mind
Wherever you may be, I'll surely find
I'll surely find, Make no fuss, just leave us

Give me a little time, let me clear out my mind
Give me a little time, let me clear out my mind
Give me red wine, the kind make me feel fine
You make me feel fine all of the time
Red red wine, you make me feel so fine
Monkey back and ease up on the sweet deadline
The line broke, the money get choked
Bunbah, ganjapani, little rubber boat

Red red wine, you give me not awful love
Your kind of lovin' like a blessing from above
Red red wine, I loved you right from the start
Right from the start, with all of my heart
Red red wine, you give me holy pahzing
Holy pahzing, you make me do my own thing
Red red wine in an eighties style
Red red wine in a modern beat style
Yeah

Old Times!!!

2005-02-15T05:02:00.000-08:00

man i sure miss primary skool dayz... esp ma frens, ma teachers and ma 2 fav prefect... love ma 2 fav prefect... first time felt being loved by 2 girls at one time... gerek huh... lol... no worries if get caught by oth prefect for doin something bad... da two super fav prefect of mine will surely scold the prefect for tryin to book a poor lil boy... oh man they sure adore me like hell... lol... no storybook no worry... a hand will appear and pass me a book... isnt tat great... assembly time wow two prefect beside me... tat is juz lovely... lol... buddy program... instead of having one senior as ma buddy i have TWO!!! but so sad i cant seem to remember their names... love them.. miss them... adore them man... Super Duper Prefect... man i wish i could turn baq time n feel wad its like to be small, have no worries n always be loved by the two fav prefect... n did i write abt how cute they were... lol...

Never There!!!

2005-02-12T19:47:00.000-08:00

I need your arms around me
I need to feel your touch
I need your understanding
I need your love, so much
You tell me that you love me so
You tell me that you care
But when I need you (baby)
Baby, (you're never there)

On the phone long, long distance
Always through such strong resistance
First you say you're too busy
I wonder if you even miss me
Chorus:Never there
You're never there
You're never ever, ever, ever, there

(Trumpet Break)A golden bird that flies away
A candle's fickle flame
To think I held you yesterday
Your love was just a game
A golden bird that flies away
A candle's fickle flame
To think I held you yesterday
Your love was just a game
You tell me that you love me so
You tell me that you care
But when I need you (baby)
Baby!

Take the time to get to know me
If you want me why can't you just show me
We're always on this roller coaster
If you want me why can't you get closer

Dead People Working

2005-02-10T23:18:00.000-08:00

work was like crap yesterday... all was quiet... WEIRD!!! khair was like damn damn quiet... he was neva like this... i think all this is happen cause of me... i was really tired yesterday... n i work very slow n like i was suppose to do sweep, mop, clean the filters n the stove all in juz one n half hours... tats was like kinda impossible to do... n he kinda give the dissapointed look when i was still doing the filters at 1.30 am... haiz its all ma fault... shit yesterday is the last time im gonna work wit him n i made him dissapointed... wad the fark... when we went for our break he is still doin work... in fact he n didnt even went for break... then its like super damn weird... its like damn quiet... everyone was like doin their work in silence... no words no joke... like a farkin zombie like tat... Haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wad happen to me yesterday???

2005-02-08T17:26:00.000-08:00

first of all i wanna say sorry to the person tat i totally did wrong to... im really sorry!!! shit shld have found the truth b4 i jump into conclusion stupid... wads wrong wit me im like not me... i usually think b4 i act... but wad the fark did i just do yesterday... arghhhh!!! I just wanna say sorry to ya... Im Sorry...

rite aft tat last msg i feel like no mood to work... then also so many bad things happened to me last nite... maybe its juz redemption aft wad i did earlier... i cant believe tat a bloody big and heavy bin topple over me... wad the fark nearly died... then fendi still wanna take ma pic while i was half dead wit tat stupid heavy bin...lucky there's noone there if not i will be damn paisey...
then khair ma supervisor was like givin the haiz haiz cause i work damn slow n was like damn blur juz now... lucky abg elias save the day he brought our pay one day early... everyone was like hooray hooray... everyone has a refreshed look when they c abg elias n his wife... cant believe his wife is super friendly... OMG THIS JOB IS FULL OF FRIENDLY PPL...love it...n khair was like back to his normal self can joke wit him once more... oh man nearly burn ma fifty bucks on the Man U Arsenal match... khair was like im gonna be fifty bucks richer... lucky im not tat bad in my religious knowledge... i say to him as "org islam tak leh bet tau haram haram... Allah larang tau Allah benci tau"... oh man im good... lol... the he was like "yelah tu kalau aku haram kalau kau menang bet tu semua halal"... haha... man he's rite... lol... and wad the fark i forgot to put the keys back.... then hafta sent back the keys... burn 8 bucks... money money!!!! sob sob!!

Such Beauty! But Wad A Watse!

2005-02-03T20:25:00.000-08:00

wow this past few days i notice quite a few chicks at the hotel... hostess actually at the ktv lounge... so so sexy sia... they kinda wink at me then u know i played hard to get... like im gonna get seduced by their sexiness... lol... its Fuad lah Fuad no woman can bring me down or make me melt... haha... ok ok abt da winkin part tats juz crap from me but they sure did look at me... maybe they think im sexy when i sweat.. who knows... lol... but one thing for sure i would neva fall for a girl like tat... damn damn cheap... furama is one the dirtiest place i've been to... the ppl... the conversation... esp the chinese banquet... tats ma work place!!!

Dead Like Me!!

2005-01-31T20:23:00.000-08:00

since i started work there's no like hmmm i wanna go out wit ma fren this weekend go watch movie have fun n all... there is no time for all tat... nowadays i sleep for ten hours... n by the time i wake up i have to go to work already... also no time to layan ma kuz who comes here every weekend... sometimes in a day i dont even take ma meals... but im still gaining weight... lol weird!!! oh man forget its farah b'dae party this weekend n i dont even think i can make it there... haiz... n now no more skool n got ma own job... i got to put aside money for the internet bills.. ez-link.. n also for my own pocket money... then every month give ma parents 100 bucks each... then ma grandma still dunno how much to give her... then left wit 50 bucks... but i dun care tat im left wit 50 bucks cause i kinda feel a lil bit happy wit ma life now...

2005-01-31T20:04:00.000-08:00

Babygirl...I said tonight is your lucky night
Peter Andre along wid Bubbler Ranx on de mic

I stop and stare at you
walking on the shore...
I try to concentrate
my mind wants to explore...
the tropical scent of you
takes me up above...
and girl when I look at you
Oh I fall in love!

No doubt you look so fine
girl I wanna make you mine
I want to be with a woman just like you
No doubt I'm the only man
who can love you like I can
so just let me be with the woman that I love

Babygirl... shinin looking glass

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, mysterious girl
I wanna get close to you
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, mysterious girl
move your body close to mine

Girl you are mi heart desire
and you alone a set mi soul pan fire
mi tell them
girl you a mi heart desire
you alone.......watch dis

Watching the sun go down
the tide is drifting in
we can get closer now
and feel the warmth within
'cause I'm looking in your eyes
feeling so alive
and girl when you touch me
it's time to take it through the night

Girl I wanna be with you
I wanna spend the night with you
I need to be with the woman that I love
Girl I wanna do to you
all the things you want me to
i need to be with the woman that I love

Babygirl... let your loving release
Oh, oh, oh, oh ,oh, mysterious girl
I wanna get close to you (so close to you my baby)
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, mysterious girl
move your body close to mine

Well I've been sitting by the phone hoping you'd call
when time mi hear your voice I feel ten feet tall
body weh yu ave vek de man dem a bawl
man I trip over man when time yu name call
your pretty looks surround me like a flowers of bloom
And I love the smell of your 'elizabeth taylor' perfume
your personality alone light up de room
just one kiss alone a make mi heart go boom

Oh, oh, oh, oh ,oh, mysterious girl
I wanna get close to you (c'mon now, c'mon now)
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, mysterious girl
move your body close to mine

Girl you are mi heart desire
and you alone a set mi soul pan fire
(repeat to fade)

Wad A Day!

2005-01-28T06:02:00.000-08:00

damn damn tired today... my whole body was aching the whole day maybe cos i didnt get much rest yesterday... its like last two days 10pm to 3pm da next day i didnt get ma sleep... then sleep onli abt 3 hours oh man still sleepy rite now... n had to eat raw egg yolk!!!... n suprisingly my my body starts to feel betta already... hmmm didnt get any msg from farhan looks like he is still gonna work today... lol... lucky u... farhan broke the valve and still can work... haha... i tot of takin a pic of u beside the valve and title it "last day of work"... haha... hmmm kinda feel im missing a fren rite now... and to tat fren sorry i didnt reply ur msg... left ma hp in ma sista's room n didnt knew i got any msg from u... anyway i hope we pass the inspection today... work like super extra yesterday... hope velu n eric is satisfied wit our work... fark them if they are not!!!

Fark U Velu!!! ARGHHHHH!!!

2005-01-26T08:30:00.000-08:00

ARGHHH! velu where's ma money!!! fark i onli get 256 bucks... how to support ma family... my sons need their toy car... my daughter needs her barbie... my wife needs her facial n need to go shopping... the bills some more... wad the hell how am i eva gonna be a good husband... sob :( ... lol... but seriously who can live wit 256 bucks when u work more than 20 days... it shld be like 500 or 600... also no food like they promise in da contract... c lah wad happens when greed takes over u u get stingy... velu velu... one day one day im gonna take ova ur company n u will be workin wit me as toilet cleaner... muahahaha... n velu, u'll be begging on ur knees "Boss Fuad let me polish shoes or do u need me to shine ur toilet bowl for u"... then i would say "hmmm oh im so touched but no thankz... btw u got tonnes of toilet bowl to clean... beta hurry up i dont want to hear any complaints"... lol... but dunno when tat day is gonna come... all the staff had no mood to work cause of the low pay... Velu!!! AGRHHHH!

Pay Day!

2005-01-25T22:06:00.000-08:00

hey farhan insyallah i take ur pay fer ya... im gonna tell him he get 200 then i take rest.... muahahaha... anyway u owe me fifty bucks... yeah man today im gonna be fifty bucks richer... woohoo! let me c hmmm wad wanna buy ah when i get my pay... first gotta fulfill ma promise belanja ma frenz... then buy a pack of heavenly rolled rox... yeah! haha... then give ma parents some cash... top up my bloody ez link... then i dunno wad to do wit da rest of da cash... i hope i get ma full pay... if not tat velu muz kana hantam sia... muz teach him not to mess wit the one n onli gremlin in singapore... muahaha... ya also dunno if i need to go suntec go take my pay or abg elias sent da pay... pls pls god make him sent da cash to us...

The game we play at work!

2005-01-23T21:43:00.000-08:00

4-2... man i cant believe farhan is leading me in this game we play at work... its so fun but kinda lame we find a spot to scare each oth... n when one person sucessfully scare the oth person they score point... haha lame rite... but its pure fun... when get to look a farhan's shocked looked... Farhan dun u dare write anything abt me.... Oh ya hmmm forgot to write abt my second supervisor... Where is tat guy now! i love tat guy man... he is funny and fun to be ard wit... Abg Din Abg Din.... Asal pemalas sangat kan dah kena sacked... poor guy... man im gonna miss him... ya ahmad is gonna be at furama today... Yahoo! wanna try and scare him...wonder how he look when he gets scare... haha... Omg wad time izzit now shit im late for work!!!!!

My Day Off! Hooray!

2005-01-19T11:18:00.000-08:00

man it was tirin workin all nite... tired but happy... my job is the best thing eva... supervisors are great... very friendly and nice... and can treat them like frens... joke wit them... ask them to do their job faster... lol... fun huh!then got this farking dirty old man... got once he asked me to suck his lil bro when i disturb him while he was in da toilet... yucks he is SOOO farkin disgustin... also he will neva zipped his pants even though got hinted tat his coffeeshop is opened... and he still can say tat he wanna let some air in cause very hot inside his pants.... wad the hell... lol... ask me to wash his asshole wit chemical lah... lol... me, farhan, fendi loves disturbing... we juz love it when he replys wit funny dirty jokes... yeah farhan... this guy is easily scare... haha so fun disturbing him... scarin him is so fun cos can c his body shake like fark... lol.... I Love My Job!!!!